hey girl.. i think that you are just doin your job as P (president) to meet up with her and teach her de dance steps and everything.. actually its not your responsibility to teach her the dance steps.. she is suppose to find out from you.. you did take the initiative to teach her but she didnt bother to take de time off to arrange her stuff so that she could learn it.. and to blame you about losin de passion for dance (smtg along de line), thats stupid.. if you can make her lose it, thats not passion. to start of with, de dance is her passion.. she should try to arrange her time and do whadever is necessary so that she could attend dance practice.. if i were you, i would have done de same thing.. i think she is just findin excuses for herself.. i know its not fair that when you lend a helpin hand and your actions are strike by lightnin.. and if you could give up somethin for dance and why she cant.. i cant understand her as well.. come to think of it, why other jcs (students) can excel in their studies and cca so well.. coz they have de determination.. well de least she could do is to tell you that she cant make it tmrw and ask if you are free on another day.. de problem doesnt lie in you.. is not that she didnt respect you.. she just didnt respect herself.. is not that de others are younger thats why they didnt fight back.. if they are not happy with you, they could just shout at you or smtg.. its just that they acknowledge you as their leader.. dont be dishearten over this and hold back when you want to get things right.. just do whadever is necessary.. and i must say sorry that i didnt help you in scolding.. if there is noone doin this, we will still stuck at very low level.. okay, i shall end my essay here.. thanks for bearin with me. Lol.
p/s: i talk more in sms compared to phone.. i need time to think over. Lol. hope things will turn for de better for you tmrw.. goodnight.. anything call me.. or sms.

will you guys believe me if i say that that long entry above was send to me thru smsES? yes, its true. its from my DEARLY BELOVED VICE PRESIDENT, SAM!!!

she felt whad i felt. she knows how i felt. im just VERY VERY GRATEFUL to have her as my vp, and most importantly, as a friend. quite close i must say, even though we usually meet durin dance prac and outings. but ive nvr felt distant from her. (except durin those times where she purposely ignore me for no reason, usually bcoz shes with her close friends, and those times where she can only see me when im 15cm away from her).


this entry turns out to be a dedication for her. well, she deserves it. I LOVE YOU SAM!


i guess im just grateful that she understands. i did asked her a few times whether im in de wrong. coz if i were, i should know, so that i dont offend ppl and stuff. but i wasnt. i dont think i am.


i just dont wanna be de bad person. i bet by doin this, i sound like im blamin de other party. but if im not in de wrong, why should i bother whad others might think, right? anw, i did talk to de other party. not very much but okay la, pretend like nothin happend. but i have a feelin that de other party told a few of her friends. maybe. i dont wanna judge others so much. im kinda bothered la, but then again, i shouldnt be la. anw, she said she can prac durin lunch when i askd her again in a nothin-happend-yesterday-and-im-not-affectd-by-it way just now. her reply was kinda harsh, like theres an edge, that showd that she was still pissd with me. or maybe its just me.

whadever la. im tryin to be like hanis. he's my motivation to not be seen as de bad person. patience and dont disclose it to de whole world whad happens. sam also made me hold back from being a BIATCH, coz i had already imagine scenarios of de shoutin and bitchin in de canteen if i had taken it to heart, but she told me otherwise la. im gonna take it in my stride and move on.


PASSION MOVES YOU...