yesterday i was late for sch. and today i wasnt. i saw my tutor and told her "im here!" she said she knows coz she saw me. and added on about it being a good effort. well, hello!, im class rep and she already mockd me by askin my friends yesterday whether im always like this (late). wasnt really mockin to me lah.. she's cool. im likin most of my tutors tis year. de very approachable kind. i like.

anw, dance was fun. but im kinda stressd out la. at de rate we are goin, we cant make it. honestly. so you ppl out there who will be our competitors for Danceworks 2o06 will be smirkin right now, i bet. BUT! im not dead yet. you guys will have to kill me first. (damn drama la!) basically, im not gonna give up so easily. like my song goes, "DOnt GiVe Up! Oh SiTI DonT GIve UP!" yes, i vill not. puttin de mistakes and how de previous practices were behind, im goin to start scoldin ppl.

after dance, me charlotte ash jesmen and sam went to west malls bk for dinner. all of us had de student meal. we chat and talk cock. i was impressd by ash's continuous chatterin. she's really funny and de life of de group. i mean, wit her friends all, i bet she's their LIFE. she was really funny la.. sayin that her house area is still very kampong-ish, and that she had to wait for lightnin to actually have lights at home. then it made me crap as well. she said she dont really go online except for downloadin songs and smtg else which i cant quite rmbr. so i was sayin like she had to wait for lightning to strike then she can type coz then theres electricity. so when there isnt, she has to stop and she has to keep doin that. and then she said she used solar energy la. and for water heater, i askd her whether her bro had to cycle de bicycle to turn de waterwheel and all. it was damn funny la coz we were very action packd; our hands and faces are damn comical la.

then came de not-so-nice endin. went to meet hanis. i was kinda tired la but i think after goin on those gym-like machines beside de potong pasir cc, i made em awake and kinda pumpd up. so pumpd up that i climbd de spider web which was wet with my neeon stuffd in my fbt. half way up, i stoppd and watchd a band prac on de 2nd storey of de cc. all tis while i have not met hanis yet. he was havin dinner wit his friends and i was already at potong pasir. then while up there, maybe it was a callin, coz i turnd my head to my left and i saw from afar, tis weird walkin guy who has just ended a call. i somewhad knew it was hanis tryin to call me (my phone was on de groud wit my bag) but im blind la, despite havin specs on. anw, i startd shoutin his name. i recognise johan lim from far. i thot he saw me, ah lim. but i doubt so, coz if he did he would have tell hanis that i was up there in de web. anw, i kept shoutin and wavin till he saw me. when he had just crossd de road in front of macs, i came down and startd runnin towards him like a crazyly in love child and huggd him. but... no response.


tis is too long. basically, he got very quiet and i dont know whad he was thinkin la, although usually, we are thinkin of de same things. but bcoz i was damn hyper, i became childish and went bonkers. i was Really offended when he didnt huggd me back. so there i was hyper and all and tryin to make him smile or laugh at my craziness, all de way till we were on 147 did i knew that there were lots of saints at macs itself. i SO dint know la. coz he came from de other opp side of de macs. and he felt bad coz he didnt huggd me back in front of evryone. he thinks he's a bad bf and al la. well, he is. hahahahahahaha... im kiddin hanis. dont go sad and long faced and all ah. anw, I was mortified la coz (1) i acted like a fool, (2) i spoild his reputation, (3) i embarrased him and MYSELF and (4) made him feel weird and dint know how to react coz i huggd him in front of saints (pun intended). i knew i had sort of spoild his reputation. come to think of it now, i spoild it bad lah! ppl must have thot whad a childish gf hanis has and all which is makin me feel so embarrassed now la! in my sch lib! sigh. im such a joke man..


when he didnt respond to my hug right, he did say "whad are you doin!" and mentiond that there were many ppl around. well, i dint take it seriously and was like "theres no one whad!" and just skippd away la. i dint know de saints at macs. god! im such a fool. now i know why im born on april first. tis was why!


but he should so freakin thank god for my hyperness. if i were as evry bit as cranky or upset by whad he said and did, we would have fight. i mean seriously. coz he wasnt able to give in and not worry about de whole ting coz he felt bad and all, despite me sayin that its okay and just relaxd and all. it would have been a VERY bad fight. thats why i told him that god made it balance,i was hyper and he was de opp, so that we will still be okay.


im not gonna make myself be seen at potong pasir again.


but dont worry ppl, we are okay. we sat down and talkd things out. and we have ruled out that we wont meet when we are tired, which is equivalent to bein busy as well. till june. not like we wont meet at all till june but we'll be seein very very little of each other for now. so all those groupies of hanis, enjoy tis leeway im givin for he will be min back after june. muahahaha.


we really minded whad others think huh? i did tell him that yest coz he always tell me that as well. why bother!? judge me all you want guys!!! heck care from me you will get. im in yoda-format now. *shakin that off* but i still feel bad and i am still bothered for a fact that ive soild his reputation. dont judge him can? and im not blamin him and all la. well, maybe just de not-huggin-me-back part. moreover, im not in an angry or hatred mode for yest and now.god has blockd or nunbd tis feelin from me so that we will still be one. hmm.. should i be a gangster now so that evryone will be scared of me? intimidated at least? "whoever saw me hug hanis yesterday ah, you better brainwash that image or else i will wait outside macsnoner after schoo and whack you guys dead and drag your bodies to de christian cemetry! watch out ah!"



nah.... we'll forget evrything for now. i might, bring this incident up when I'm cranky de next time. but... he has promised to do one thing.





to hug me back de next time i hug him, even if its in front of his friends.