i told myself yesterday that de next entry that i was gonna update will be johan lims bday BASH. but im not doin that due to whad has happened today.

ive mentioned a few times that i hate myself for forgiving so easily. anger within me will vaporise like hot tea turnin cold when we put ice. it wasnt suppose to rhyme. im suppose to be angry and pissd!

sigh.

but tis is my (sad) life. i know it can be...... actually it is a gift. but i dont like it when i cant vent it out!

malay ao paper - 11.30. 1 and half hr paper.
i was upset. very very upset that my dad actually didnt sent me to school even though i had accompanied him to buy chicken rice for my bro. (he was afraid my bro will DIE if he dont eat before his religious class) eventually i had to buy 3 - for him as well as my another bro. i was late. de chicken rice uncle didnt hear my order correctly so i had to wait. i got my order at 11. dad said take taxi la. easier said than done. he had to rush off for his dialysis so cannot send me. sheesh. i got de taxi at 11.16. i was cryin de moment i got off de car to wait for a taxi la. i really felt like skippin de exams. but i knew that was stoopid. he wont agree if i say that he only care for haziq. but de taxi driver was so sweet. he was kinda tense thruout de journey and he drove very fast. i knew he did that for me. i guess he kinda knew i was late. but i wasnt cryin mainly bcos of that. de driver askd me when we've reachd my sch why i cry. i just smiled and said that i was late. i had actually plannd in my head to say "i was almost late for my exams but thanks to you, im not. im on time. i really appreciate it" and was thinkin of takin his plate no down. i didnt tho. his concern caught me off guard. so i ran to de top of de stoopid library buildin where i do not know which room de exams was held. eventually, it was de room where de malay a paper is usually held. which i had passd when findin for de exam room. i reachd at 11.31. i was actually markd absent and i wondered why. well, an hour into de paper, 12.25, i realised why. "you've got 5 more min", said mr benny lim. (btw, he caught me and hanis holdin hands at j8 bustop. but he dint say anythin la) back to de story, i was like "huh?! how come 5 more min only? whad time was de paper?" in a few minutes time... "pens down. bla bla bla.."


my paper startd at 11.00am. i was half an hour late. ( i knew i should have skippd de freakin exam) and i thot that if im like really late, they would have msgd me. but its ok. i really dont blame them.



fyi, im fine now. de 2 aishah/aisyahs were GREAT. they were damn nice after i came out from de cubicle all red in de face, swollen nose and all. (swollen red nose is a sign of weepin). i wanna thank them and de rest who were concernd. thanx guys. you know how they cheerd me up? aisyah on my left and aishah on my right. aisyah said "we know whad ques is comin out for malay a" apparently ain stonin caught a glimpse of de malay a paper WHICH STARTD AT 1PM. de teachers had apparently given out de wrong papers for malay ao. hur hur.


de comfortin thing about de whole incident? yes, it wasnt GCE A.