I've realised that yest blog was very much censored. I didnt vent out the main emotions, the confusion, the unfairness and the what-have-yous of yesterday in the previous update. I guess God was refraining from making bad comments that will/might hurt others. He always do that. Either I totally forgot to be nasty and make snide and self-centred comments OR I usually cant post up the entry due to some stupid computer error. Even though sometimes I started fuming even more, at the end of the day when i reflect, I realised that He was actually helping me.

Okay, that turned out to be another random entry. I wasnt about to go all preachy there about God but well, yeah, Im thankful.

For an impatient person like me, being patient for a 3 weeks or so, is a miracle.

All in the name of LOVE.


SEE! this entry was suppose to express how i feel now. how shitty i feel now........
at least ive got only 1 period of accounts lesson for the whole day. more time to sit down one corner and either (1.) emo or (2.) reflect.

i dont know whether he has read my mornin msg. jill said he went to play soccer. im hopin that he hasnt read it yet. coz if he has and he went to play soccer, it shows that he's still upset with me. oh good God. this is drainin.