ive got Brilliant idea 10mins ago.

you see, i have friends who dont really like to go out that much. and i have friends who do but im not within close proximity with them usually. i used to get upset with friends who cant go out with me and this does not refers to de former group only. that is why i tend to cling to hanis alot cos he (now esp) always tries to make time for me! he has not msg me. i dont know whether he hasnt ended his paper or not. most probably he has since its close to 1pm now and he should be at de mosque already. so im guessin that he played soccer after paper and totally forget to msg me. which made me mad a little just now. but i cant be unfair towards him. he has many friends who wants a piece of him too. so i shant be Queen Control-ing him. cos i know that he wants to spend time with me too, as much as i do.

so, the 'idea' was that i shall now go out with those ppl that enjoys goin out and study with those that doesnt! easy! and ive never thot of that! (maybe, unconsciously ive been doin this quite a bit. apart from just waitin for hanis to spend time with me). i shall group ppl now, into 2 categories - Boring but important and Fun but redundant.


another thing about me is that, i do not know why but i just want ppl to ask me out. instead of me askin them. cos to a large extent, my brain keeps tellin me that that is pathetic. like, it really shows them that i am boring and that i have no one else apart from hanis. ive realised that ive been quite distant with friends. (no, hanis its not your fault). maybe becos they cant fulfill my needs. hahahah... bitchy seh.


well, after this (entry), i hope to change. but changes take some time (might be longer for me) to happen. so i hope, meanwhile, ppl DO ask me out.


and if anyone of you suits a new category, which for now has only one member - hanis, do let me know. its de Fun but important.



Ps: intake for de Borfun and redundantly important is open.