is tis relationship goin anywhere?
where we expect it to be?
or were weexpectin too much?
a friend once gaspd/"wow"ed and was kinda shockd when i told her abt our plan.
too forward lookin.
i think she might be right.
tis relationship..
i dont know how to salvage it.
it hurts not to be loved like u used too.
especially after waitin n waitin.
and u actually managed to overcome ur own expectation.
true, from de start when we got back tgt, we told ourselves not to expect anythin from each other.
now that expectations arose, whad should be done?
my qualms are just plain simple. and selfish.
i want u. thats all.
ive not wanted anythin so bad.
if i eventually forget abt u, or i managed to compromise u, then thats it.
im tired.
tired of arguin. tired of keepin my emotions to myself. tired of u not understandin me.
its super selfish to de core.
god.
i should be ashamed.



but it doesnt make me any better, does it?