i'd rather feel de pain than be emotionless at all. makes me feel human. tho makin tt stupid mistake alr made me a bad and stupid human. i wished.. all tis didnt happen. i plan.. i promise tt i wont....... it doesnt matter. nothin can be salvaged.im supposed to suffer w it. feel de pain they say. at tis point, physical abuse or self inflict actually seems more appealin.

i wish to go thru each day like tis. alone, cold, aimless. bein an adult w a job is hinderin all these but it'll do.

my moment of weakness has caused me dearly. who'd knew. i wishd i had murdered him instead of likin. i'd feel better than tis. cos it didnt matter that im sorry. nothin to salvage. nothin.




will u be okay if we never ever get back together again?