ive never had any fantasy. thats why i always wonder whad it is like when ppl are talkin abt their fantasy, usually sexually related. ive read in mags abt ppl and their fantasies.

but ive never realised whad it is until tdy. or yesterday. i dont know how i realised it but it just suddenly clicked.

im fantasizin now. and its huge. its not sexually related! of course not. its just this longin feelin to wanna be someone. to wanna be with someone. someone/somethin that doesnt exist! haha. im freakin retarded.

but yes, im so deep in this fantasy of mine. its like u SOOOO badly want it to be true! to be happenin soon to you! or you'll go CRAZEE!!!!




sigh. story of my life. full of fictional characters that excite my whole bein.