ive no friggin idea why i bother doin tis - updatin. it serves no purpose. sigh.

i had an episode in school just now. very empty stomach, menstrual cramps, blackened vision, cold sweats, ringin and blockin of my ears, difficulty breathin and nauseous. it was scary.

some part of me wishd id just passd out. that'll probably do me good. but de other part of me didnt want to trouble de school.

so i got shooed home. took a day mc and spent my time in bed, not really restin cos i was engrossd in my book. im in NEED of eclipse now. by tonight hopefully.

again i dont know why im doin tis - explainin.

i wantd to eat so i kinda went to school earlier than i have been these 2 weeks. a little earlier. once i reachd school, i wantd to eat but thot i should finish up abit more of readin. when i realised de time, it was too late so i thot id wait till recess then. i did had de thot of goin home but thot against it for ive recently did so. not gd for de rap sheet. whadever tt means siti. but yeah. so just ignored de unsettlin n sick feelin. but suddenly when i was whiskin de eggs durin home ec, and movin to de stove, i decided i was unwell. made my way to de other room where aisah was and just sat on a box infront of de fridge. apparently i was pale and lips blue, i just sat there and then on a chair, head restin on de counter. aisah gave me a piece of bread tt i dont have de energy to chew n swallow. she then gave me a packet drink. then i requestd for her to call someone else to take my lesson and she brought me to de staff room to rest. then i got shooed.

yet again, i dont know why im doin tis - confessin.

at tt brink of losin consciousness, i only thot of one person. how weird. it didnt help one bit. i wish now tt id fell and concuss or smtg. id probably forget abt tt short moment. and it wouldnt bother me.



sheesh.