in de toilet at 7.50ish - 8pm last night...i think im gonna stop scarin ppl.
they need to live their lives. surprisinly, ive not been feelin suicidal.
quite sad but good i guess.
i hope tis feelin lasts tho.
mybe God cant help me if it
really happens.
haha! so yeah.. i promise i wont do stoopid stuffs.
tho from experience, 2 things can happen.
one: ppl still dont believe me even when i promise
two: im fuckin fickled and .. spontaneous?
yah.. so, sorry if things happen but im stickin to my promise for now. so maybe those who CARE, can take a breather. for now. Hahaha!
ive also realised tt anger is a
really good emotion.
it makes u do things - can be good AND bad. but eventually, anger will dissipate. thats de sucky part.
its strength doesnt lasts. compared to sadness.
de power of emotions. it moves you (literally some times)
8.27pm
oh, im not guranteein a safe lifestyle either. (:
but it beats death right? ((: so stop fuckin frettin!
10.19pmsome songs just triggers certain emotions. ive never really listened to de meanin of each song i play on de ipod but GAWD, Yellowcard's songs are all spot on for me now. haha take a look!
EMPTY APARTMENT
Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me downAs I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart isAnswer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is
Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okayWaking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart isTake you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friendTake you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
It's okay
It's okay
ONLY ONEBroken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only oneMade my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)I won't walk out until you know
(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
(Music Intro)
Here I go, so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one, and i know you can see right through me so let me go and you will find someone(Chorus)
Hear i go,scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there`s just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one (x3)
you are my only one
MILES APARTIf I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all beganWe could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heartNow we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far awayWe'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with youWe'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
TWENTY THREEI got to tell you that he waited all his life
For someone like you to come make the wrong things right
I know he didn't have the answers all the time
But you can't tell me that you've never told a lieWe're almost twenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back nowTwenty-three and it's so sad to me
You tell the world I'm dead to youBut I know you want me back now
Was it fun for you to watch him fall apart? (Watch me fall)
And suffocate him while you held him in your arms (in your arms)
I swear to God I wish he never let you in (let you in)
And I just hope we never hear from you againWe're almost twenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back now
Twenty-three and it's so sad to me
You tell the world I'm dead to you
But I know you want me back
Wasted on you (wasted on you)
Wasted on you (so much time I've)
Wasted on you (wasted on you)
Wasted on you
On you
On youTwenty-three and you're still mad at me
So much that I said to you and I want to take it back now
Twenty-three and it's so sad to me
You tell the world I'm dead to you
But I know you want me back now
and my MOST SPOT ON SONG...
INSIDE OUT
Here, A little sympathy for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
Here, A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't you say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend
The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of us take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of us take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us
I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called a falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in
Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't you say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend1.42amim goin lesbo. till i find
my own edward cullen/robert pattinson. Gawd! im nvr gettin bored of de dvd! im realisin.learnin alot of new things frm de movie again. sighhhh.. fuckin hot n awesome. i just wish im in kristen stewarts shoes! i dont wish im bella. too overated. haha. wtf right? hahaha. I. CAN. SO. FUCK. HIM! Wahahahaha! im too high.. Siggggh. Gdnight werld.
Death is easy.Life is harder. - Bella Swan
