quite gloomy tdy. despite a superbly lepak day in school.

had a party and watchd kungfu panda.

im feelin very disturbd tho. i think one of my colleague hates me. :( im really tryin to be nonchalant abt it but sighh. i dont like tis feelin. i DONT WANT tis feelin. burst my bubbles only. im so on abt life now.. sighhh. hope tis feelin will pass.

on another note, i was wonderin to myself tis morn. maybe theres a reason as to why i cant change. actually, i just thought of that NOW. but it does go along with my revelation tis morn. i was wonderin why im always doin de 'chasin' in de rship. haha. not rship per se but u get me lah. why cant i be de girl in de rship. de traditional way i mean. u know, waitin for de guy to do de werk. sighh. i guess its bcos i just cant live knowin that i coud have done smtg abt it! like i always want it instantaneously u know. sometimes i guess de guy probably has plannd to do smtg like that (approach me for example), but i just want it there n then! hahaa. idiot right. but i guess TIS IS ME. nothin i do can change that. which comes to mind 2 things of major influence in my life. one: why change when its probably meant for me to always be de one 'chasin'!? two: i just cant fuckin change ME! some things i can change like preferences. but things like habit and behaviour.. it takes more to move me. im tryin to do it still tho. mentally pushin myself to an invisible goal. nothin bad abt it. just that its a learnin process. and as much as i love to say i wanna study and all that, Learnin is a whole different thing. haha.

i think im on a rebound. DAMNN! hahahaha...
but hes hottt..