sighhh.

i woke up dreadin de day. me and bert woke up w bad news for each other. hahaha. but so far its been quite nice. surprisinly. bein at home, surrounded by my family. probably my dad was sleepin so i didnt get any shit from him. but everyone like so nice to me tdy. as though they know i need de tlc. hahaha.

u wont believe where i am now. im at a cybercafe or whadever u call it. cos my lappie spoilt so i made my walk to hougang green.

a few things made me smile tdy. if not on de outside, then on de inside.
- looks like a friend of mine has been havin a good time. keep up de good werk dude. its gettin pretty much easier now right? i believe so too. maybe time does heal wounds. im happy that you are. :)
- another friend is findin his happiness. dont worry abt other things man. just keep on lovin and everythin else will turn out great. happiness is subjective to me. and im startin to find things to keep myself entertain.
- and to my babe of a friend, be careful. i know u know ur limits. but pls, do take care. (wow. why am i takin ur motherly role now??)
- and to you my friggin AJ, tues better be ON. i need to spend quality time w u u know. all de single ladies must stick tgt. :))

ok. maybe tdy might not be so perfect afterall. baru jer kene pekik kejap kat talipon. haha. so malay. well, im goin out tts why.

i wanna buy:
- yoga mat
- transparent stud
- skateboard
- guitar strings

yeap. im keen on exercisin, skatin and playin de guitar. u know, things i can do on my own. dont have to depend on ppl so much. my abs are formin. somehow. i dont know how also. not tt i do crunches everyday. its like when im bored in de middle of de night, in front of de tv, w no gd shows to watch, then i just do some. so its kinda like a motivation to keep fit and get my fuckin ol' figure back! hahaha. i wanna skate bcos then i can like u know focus on smtg (skatin skills) and get my mind off others. playin de guitar is just for me to start findin de melodies for de friggin songs that ive written.
i need to find tt hockey ball as well.

im also happy w my new headphones. THEY ARE AWESOME!!! i feel like a have a live band playin for me. shoutin in my face and surroundin me w their equipments. hahaha!!!

oh damn. i cant copy paste de picture! bane of a cybercafe. urgh.

anyway, i just hope i CAN do all these. im quite stubborn when it comes to changin my mind. like if im alr thinkin of someone, i refuse to stop thinkin and do smtg else. as much as it hurts and i cry till my eyeballs wanna sag out, i refuse to change my mind and do smtg tt will benefit me. herein lies de problem. hahaha

well, i guess i will leave tdys entry w a partial of a song. and may my friends out there have a blastinly awesome time. :)))

it looks like its gonna rain here. and we welcome it. :)


it gets harder everyday, but i cant seem to shake the pain
im tryin to find the words to say, please say
its written all over my face, i cant
function the same when youre not here
im callin your name and noones there
and i hope one day you'll see, nobody has it easy
i still cant believe you, found somebody new
but i wish you the best, i guess.
cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
how to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
we've heard it all before, that everybody knows
how to make it right, i wish we gave it one more try
one more try
one more try
cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

- john legend