im in a dilemma. im feelin depressd. im feelin emo all over again.
but its not abt rship. no.
its abt my job. it seems like im goin to stay for another year before they send me for de diploma. meanin i will probably go for de dip in 2011. wtf rightt.
i know im to blame bcos of my many emotional breakdowns, many MCs and currently my too-laid-back attitude. sighh... tis just makes my overseas-education option all de more appealin. cos honestly, right now, im no longer into tis whole teachin-as-a-career mood. im not into de WERKIN mood. not right now.
life is too short. i still think im very young to start werkin properly. especially as a teacher. i still wanna study. i want to have tt freedom. i want to stuff my face in nothin but books. give me anythin! anythin but a full time job.
sighhh..

i so badly need someone to talk to right now. like just huddle my legs and rock back n forth whilst talkin my brains out. to someone. someone tt i feel soo comfortable with, still. someone tt pushd me to try tis job and knew tt i can do it well. tt someone.

accordin to my HOD, i did very well last year. but whadever tt happend tis year just tarnishd it. sighh..

i need to feel appreciatd again. i need to feel gd abt myself again.
i need a *insert werd*.