i dreamt of robert pattinson last night.
my main aim of bloggin tdy is to let u know that apparently my bait werkd. HAHHAHA!!! but too bad. he caught me at a bad time when im still emoin and thus, i told him off. in a nice way tho. but seriously, if he had said that to me like a few days earlier, i would have said yes. (as you can refer to my previous updates.) so... yeah. too bad for him.
im likin my emo state now. had i not been emo, i would have gone for him now too. hahaha... powerful werds can influence you. and if it comes from someone who you used to lookd up to so much, its even faster.
like ive said before, somehow im not meant to be in a rship or smtg cos there will always be smtg in de way. like when i Did like de guy, hes almost attached. move on to next. when i Did like de guy, hes too high strung / out-of-reach kinda guy. move on to next. when i Did like de guy, he treats me like doll. move on to next. when i Did like de guy, he liked me back a little too late.
wow. ive just realised that within 4mnths, ive liked 4 different guys.. HAHAHA!!!! but not one month each... my infatuations dont last apparently.
anyway, things will probabaly start takin a U-turn, now that i have just mentioned all those. it doesnt happen de same way once u start mentionin ard, believe me. im not de only one who has experience tis kinda shit. when u r confident abt smtg, say... ur rship?, de unevitable will come chasin u and caught up, eventually. so, expect de unexpected?? well, just live ur life for now. and rmbr that God always have a gd reason for de things tha happend.
if its meant to be, its meant to be.
i need tro give a huge shout out to all de guy friends that have been spendin time w me. some evidently fallin Or disgusted by me. with de lack of female companionship for me to hurl out my feelins / actions, you guys have been there to support me. ive been very lucky to make / found tis new 'brotherhood'. no amount of werds can help me say how grateful i am for ur listenin ears, ur company, ur money and ur hours spent w me. Thank You from de bottom of my heart. i hope that tis friendship will last and maybe u guys can join my grp of ladies to be MY bridesmaids and best men.
HAHAHHA!!!! as if im gonna get married!!
im gonna stay in tdy and wadch robert pattinson FAKE a kiss w kristen stewart on mtv movie awards that ive missd for de past TWO FUCKIN DAYS!
readin New Moon all over again. strengthens de emo feelin. Kudos!