i miss those times that i cant finish my food, and theres always someone who will help. especially when I cook de food. or when its mac n cheese.

spendin tonight on my own. not in de mood for company, unlike last night, as i am tired and lazy to chitter chatter. i wanna emo.

few days ago i told a friend tt i would accept anyone who will ask me to be their gf. so that movin on will be much easier for me. i did thrash out de pros n cons. and it was a tie. bcos....
pro: i can stop thinkin of Him.
con: he will be hurt.

but then i thrash out again. and found out that its actually 2:1. bcos...
pros: i can stop thinkin of Him. AND i will eventually like/love de new guy. hey, thats how arranged marriage werks right?!
con: he will be hurt. (but then again, who doesnt right?)

so yeah. that was how i felt. a few days ago. and i thought ive gotten a bait. but DAMN. its not happenin. when i felt like i could pull him closer to a rship w me, hes too emo. which makes ME emo. which makes me rethink now. cos we had tis late night out and we were both fuckin emo. and i realised tt tt will be de evillest one of de evillest thing ive done. and de rest is then history.

IM NOT MEANT TO HAVE A RSHIP NOW. SOMEHOW.
God is like forbiddin it or smtg.
i just hope its a gd thing.
but then again, now tt ive said it, i bet everythin will be goin de other way round.
sighhh...
typical.

so lets see whads gonna happen for me in de future. its kinda excitin. awaitin for ur future to unfold. its always unexpected.
ANDDD again, now tt ive said that, de Total opposite will happen soon.
sighhhhh.

so, whadever la.
gonna go checkup on my email and fb and bloghop.
been missin out alot for de past few days apparently.

lovin bein home alone.