whad could possibly led to that decision??
did he change his mind? did he just realised that actually, i dont even deserve to befriend him?
or could tis mean that they are finally.... my worst fears basically.
i will still wait till he tells me. as a friend. and when tt time comes, i wouldnt want to cry in front of him. in front of anyone for tt matter.
i used to think tt cryin in front of others is a gd thing. so they know how i really feel. but now, im just so embarassed. on hindsight, i realised tt ive been a fuckin baby. fuckin emo freak.
its one thing to think ure one (emo freak) and its another when others start to agree on their own.
im a walkin fountain sometimes.
i hope theres an explanation from him so as to not let my paranoia spread.
or would i rather not know????